Is it normal that I am starting to have some serious anxiety about having a baby in the house again after 5 1/2 years. Dont' get me wrong we are super excited for her but now that the time is drawing near (possible induction scheduled for Tuesday) I am freaking out a little.
I am worried about the timing of everything. Katie starts 2nd grade on the 29th and Brielle will be starting Kindergarten a week later :( With possible postpardum, and trying to adjust to a new schedule and summer being over (no more just sleeping in and hanging out at cowabunga all day) I might not adjust well.... I'm worried :)
I'm worried that my kids aren't going to like school... I don't think I can fight 2 kids to get ready every morning and the tears at drop off (me or them!) I'm worried that they'll have friends in their classes and that they'll like their teachers... does everyone freak out each year at school time like I do?!?!? I'm worried about all the extra curricular activities like piano and drama that the kids are wanting to do... how am I going to get everything done? homework, practices, chores, dinner, NEW BABY!!! Not to mention the cost of everything + new baby costs.
I'm worried that baby (Can we just name her already????) is never going to sleep... she's awake all night now just moving around and playing (what is she doing?) Both the girls have slept so well and been just great babies... why should this baby be any different, right? Or am I due for a baby that has colic and is fussy and cries a lot? Almost nightly Brielle will say in her prayers... "please bless our baby to not be a crying baby!" me too Brielle.... me too!
Anyway.... sorry for the weird post, I just needed to put it out there. Wish me luck, my sweet husband is really pushing for the induction on Tuesday, I'm not so sure I'm ready... but will I ever be? The longer I wait the more anxious I become and the closer to the dreaded school starting.... ughhh Can't summer just last forever?!?!?!?
2 comments:
Jami you look so good and are such a great mom! I'm so excited for you guys. If you are induced tomorrow, I hope all goes well and I can't wait to meet your sweet baby girl!!! Good luck.
I think all of your feelings are natural. You will be great and your kids will do well. School is fun and it will give you some nice one on one time with the baby. My advice: try to find someone who can help with pick up from kindergarten. We had Lila right after kindergarten started for spence and it was always hectic to load the baby twice a day to take and pick up, so if you can find someone who can help even if it is just a couple of days it will be easier for ya. Well hope all goes well today!! You look so cute all pregnant!
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