I have learned something about myself... I am not patient and I have a lot of anxiety. I knew I have always been an anxious person but when faced with a life threatening cancer and constantly having to wait wait wait for biopsy results- it was almost unbearable at times!
It is amazing though what you are capable of handling when there is no other alternative.
Now it may not seem like a long time now... but after the surgery I had to wait 4 days to hear the results of the Lymph node biopsy. This was probably the hardest wait for me, because if there were cancel cells present in the lymph nodes my stage of cancer would automatically be upgraded to a 3- and further treatment would probably be needed. This was a scary thought because then the chances of recovery decrease exponentially.
BUT- have I mentioned how truly blessed I am?!? The results were CLEAR! This means that no further surgery or treatment is necessary and the cancer is GONE! I can start to pull myself back together and move on with my life. Albeit with a new appreciation for the power of the sun and the damage it can cause. I am going to be much more vigilant and careful with my exposure and also my kids.
I am always going to have a visual reminder of this experience... although I'm sure the scars with fade with time. I will think of them as my reminder of how truly blessed I am :)
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